说不出...

惆怅的心，
冷冷的天气
恍然发现夏天即将离去
漫长的冬天又来临
今天的你做了什么？
而今天的我又完成什么?
只有那mp3 player里的主题曲
唱着我现在的心情·悬挂在半空的心
不知·不知到底该往哪里去
好想·好想·卸下伪装的面具就这样离去....

Poetry to SHARE ....

You remember the struggles and pain you had
When all the good had turned to bad..
When behind the scenes you crumbled and prayed
For it all to simply just Go Way...
But When the pressure builds and tears you apart
How are you able to not depart...
How are you able to still carry a smile
When everything inside is in a pile....

Notes: I feel TOUCH!

没声音

您的电话暂时无法接通，
.....请稍后再拨.......
呼天喊地都没人听
.....我是真的不习惯寂静

懒人手记·第七章:曾经

虚脱的身躯，不听使唤，
慵懒的躺在那舒适的床上
房间有点凌乱，脑里的画也不断转换

沉淀已旧的画面就像幻灯片一直在脑里旋转
那句"抱歉！我毁了你的前途"是他曾对她说的话
事搁已久，仍然清晰的荡漾在她耳边
---不是还介怀，不是还在乎，也不是放不下---
只是她想说：事实并非如此，如果没有那任性哪来今天的理性！
她都了解，都明白，一切的一切全都尽在不言中
不堪日子都结束了，她接受了戏剧人生里是的起起伏伏
不再嚎啕大哭，不再用liquor来麻醉自己，
不再胡思乱想，不再祈求奇迹，更加不再祈祷自己失忆
她开始认为回忆，不该只有哭泣，它装满了成长的事迹
当不再执著时，回忆也可以变得很美丽，及温馨
不知从何开始，她已逐渐的把灰色记忆淡然的忘记
甚至，连她自己都想不起·串接不了当时哭泣的情绪
----她都放开了·习惯了·也无动于衷了----

此刻很适合的套用了某人部落里的话：
“人与人之间啊，真不该如此脆弱”
但情人与情人之间，却常常需要断裂得无比彻底才能释放彼此
很对·很对·人就是在撕破脸时最真实
尖酸带点苛刻，任性带点伤痕，全都是赤裸裸的事实

如今的她
.....已没时间不断的耗，耗些有的没的种种傻话
而那个他啊他
.....也不再是她心里唯一的牵挂


***兜兜转转，“她”终于学会了释放明白了 Life still goes on的原理***

后记：
今天的我不知怎么搞，还没把部落格写完
.....脑袋就....
..........突然·@______@ 莫名其妙没原因的......
....想念barnes & Noble的书；starbuck的hot choco.."好想冲出门"
.....可惜·很夜了·店都打烊了! 唯有在梦里游转，继续我的美梦　>_____< “Zzz Mode"...

****To...BE...Continue****
...
＋

愚笨

是真的感到讽刺
甚至从失望到觉得受伤
我没渴求什么
只是不想被误解
故事可以很复杂
可是就是不明白
为什么你会用这种方式对待
我是真的珍惜这段友谊
就算被冷漠无情对待我都无所谓
可是为什么次次都要给我那张脸
不止一次的往我的脸喷上一堆屎
这次深深的觉得自己很白痴
原来我连路人甲都不如
谢谢你的热诚让我领悟
从今后不再有任何瓜葛

What's going on ..

I don't why...
I don't know How.....
I'm just out of my MIND....

**blah...Blah...blah** Depresses MODE

What the heck...

"Excuse Me.....Can someone tell me what's going on out there?"
Mrs A says : i NEED to STEP out "will be back within an HR (normally more than that)
Mr B says : I'm leaving right now, there's an URGENT appointment.(Suddenly lots of file on my DESK)
Mr C din't even EXIST in d OFFICE (Just call in and says"Alex"..this n that..)--Again My name is ALICE...not ALEX okay!! damn it!

****EMPTY OFFICE****
I'm SLACKING
I'm Blogging
I'm listening to my Canon in D =)

**tick tock**tick tock** An Hr gone

Still empty.......

OMG..What kind of COMPANY i'm working for ?
OT no extra PAID...
USE ppl until no limitation uh..
Annual Evaluation just 6% increasement only!
the only word i can see is **STINGY** ....
come along with lot's of lot's of**FIRE***Burning and burning
**Geram**Geram**Geram**I'm so GERAMmmmm
Gosh..I'm going to BURST offfffff! It's out of my limitation

***shouting WHY****Asking WHY****
Booo...Why i Cant get my ASS out of this WORKING ENVIRONMENT...
** Frustrated **again staring my desktop n ask
~~~~~~~~ izzit really no whr for me to RUN ?~~~~~~~~
****Heck****WHO ask *You*..study the WRONG "major"and get into the WRONG "FIELD"..

"Blink·ding" silly things pop out in my mind...@ this moment
I really wished ** I could be RICH!
So I could throw a big Envelope
"YELL out loud" says I QUIT...

Blehhhh.. **Dreaming**mode **Wink for 2 second!
I know it's >____< so hard at this POINT!
However i wish it could be TRUE..
Continute***Stays happily in my DREAMLAND***

Suddenly phone RANG *Sob@Sob@Sob* my dream fade away
**Back to the REAL world**working mode again..
Shit!It's almost 6PM and i need to finish my TASK.. :'(~~~~

shout out post...

Time flies almost a month i've try to isolate myself. In fact i do not feel i'm in the "OK"mode, I still feel so depressed. Already kept myself busy so i could sleep better in every night. Somehow,the feeling of depress killing my soul, maybe i've think too much but i just couldn't get rid of those bad feeling, bad expectation, blar blar blar.**it's really Frustrating**

I could be honest saying that "I did!" I really try my best not to think..Not being bother by those in sight feeling ..However i'm just not good in mentally persuasive myself! I'm over conscious, i think much about fact...and worried about unexpected issue. That's bad! I know i shouldn't act that way, yet i just can't help myself to stop doing that :( God! please take away my emo feeling...I hate going thru all this SHIT!@#$?....

At this moment crossing my fingers,hope that everything will be fine for me. I need my motivation back....So god please Give me some gut and wish me luck :)

懒人手记·第六章:结束了

无助那刻就会想听听心底话
盖上耳朵听听那内心的对话
感性跟理智不断在吵架
而我挣扎再挣扎都没了办法
害怕·不安·全都集聚一堂
本来就知道事情不该这样
可是现实毕竟是难堪
你又想要我怎样？
我用了心别人听见吗？
累了·累了·不想继续晃
我想挥别·挥别不愉快的画
再见了挣扎·也不继续跟理智吵架
一切就在这里说散吧！

听我说

哩哩啦啦·滴滴答答
玲玲闪闪·就是哈啦
没什么只是想说·乱说
病没好又再说瞎话
我是真的累得不像话
烂命一条就给你啦

虽然好久不说话
可是真的想懂最近你还好吗？
知道你不曾读过我写的话
所以我也很少再多说话
至少沉默比较像话
可是我就是忍不住想说话
对你说些有的没的傻话
啊·天啊·我这次还真的是个傻瓜

我只想只想要你听我在这嘀嗒·说些唠唠叨叨的话
你到底·到底·听到了吗？


P/S 两位老友·[9/4]·生日快乐啊！bless >_____< winkss (",)

懒人手记·第五章: 流言蜚语

左耳听见他在说
右耳听见她又在说
每天反复的听着A.B.C不断说
什么都没做都会有人说
到底累不累啊累不累

开始逐渐学会接受或Ignore
还要不断提醒自己别往那一坨
到头来自己是多余·它就是与我不妥
来来回回·反反复复*我只感到疲惫了*
这一刻心里憋着的无奈只剩下感慨
陷入那歇斯底里·疯狂状态
我好想·好想现在就可以逃开
离开·现在就离开·离这是非海

懒人手记·第四章:Confess

呐喊·大声的喊....
**我是真的心动了**
心中挤满了酸·酸·酸
酸楚往心房深处钻啊钻
延伸到最深的地方
开始总是装潇洒
原来自己只是个傻瓜
一直以为别人会懂·会感觉到
结果下场竟是场落空
其实感觉不到也触碰不到
最后只能默默的深藏在心底