Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Speechless Moment

Oh Yeah, it’s real touching! I guess I’m just not use to this happy moment that I’m go through now. The happiness moment been covered by lot's of worries. I'm just too Confusing with “What’s” the right choice for myself?

I’ll need to admit I feel uneasy when it comes to decision issue; I’m over worried with the unexpected issue. I know I should focus on the happiness enjoy the moment don’t think about those yucky stuff on today. Give myself a certain time frame then only think about the answer. But I’ve no idea why I feel extremely uneasy. So again, blame to my previous failure I’m coward to move; I run away while I’m force to face the reality. Sigh… I feel disappointed to my bad attitude!

Please tell me What to do? Should or shouldn’t? Obviously, I think I should get my ass back to bed, stop focusing on the negative part; try to relax and enjoy the moment I’m having…..

Ignore..Ignore..Ignore..Cheer…. ↖(^ω^)↗

Monday, January 25, 2010

心底の矛盾

生活总有许多大小事情需要抉择
而往往在抉择中隐藏了许多无奈
不管什么选择什么最终都会影响未来

有些人,需要无限的勇气
而又有些人,却只需区区几秒就了结一切
我却是那么胆怯,既没勇气也没毅力

明明该开心,明明该觉得幸福
感动那刻也把心中那份忐忑再次起了涟漪
莫名的噩梦反复反复的不断纠缠着
惊醒时,却连一丝画面也没法回想

或许,沉淀在心底的话语早在饱和点
只是自己盲目的催眠,希望看不见就等于不存在
我害怕华丽的话语,更害怕握不牢的承诺
结果自己决定逃离再逃离.........

-后记 :
看了你那篇回忆,说的贴切,如果没有回忆又怎能衬托开心的记忆。可是人的本性好像都比较selective,对伤心的事迹比较介怀,而忘了去回味曾经的美丽。我就是那extreme 的例子,劝说别人时可以很得意,当面对自己是竟是满满的落寞与落魄!愧疚啊.....