Here's the update !!!

Six years at state, it's not too long yet too short
Many issue happen within this period
Happiness, Tears, Craziness, Conflict plus lot's etc etc
Thanks for those days, I'm tough enough for the coming War
Times force me to face the Real world
Hey ppl you're so right
That's always a theory - things happen for REASON
Yes ! This thingy do EXIST.
Guess this what we call - LIFE- Up n Down
And what we should learn is - Appreciated What WE have :)

It's the time to Wrap up everything
Got to start all over again and get myself ready
- Hot humid - Desperate - Aggressive - Productive -
lot's of stuff that need to learn uh - Yucky-
Yes ! That's Asian culture , times is MONEY theory
I'll need to get rid of slacker life, Slumber attitude
Wish me Luck for all of the above !!

Oh god I'm not ready ...But I've to face it....
Yelling ... Screaming... Praying - Hope everything will be fine for ME!

Lil Sad Notes -
I should earn Extra money to go traveling but guess those things never gonna come true anymore! I'll need to sleep earlier and wish those dream come true in my dream. Thanks Zet so much will need to pay off you when I settle down, the run away plan still on for me. Hope everything get smooth n easy, looking forward 2010 CNY :) ...

尘埃落定

重新生活
放开那洒脱
不去看那堆执着
没有什么对错

决定放纵
也将它变成终结点
好，康庄大道你就等我吧!

p/s - 有些事我控制不了，或许没有对错，只是过了火候。结束也无妨，我想我是真的觉得够了，也疲惫了.

Dreaming ....

Oh God! When can My dream come true ?

When can I get my ass to the Wonderland - Greece :(.....

When Can I get rid of all this shit and Just get my ass Off :(.....

When will be the day I earn enough penny and start my Euro trip.......

............Speechless...............

PMS- ing Confession

I start to feel I'm not feeling right for the entire week

Keep having tones of weird dreams
keep feeling uneasy
keep getting pissed easily
keep holding my temper - I wish I COULD YELL BACK ! You Bastard!

For all those Reason , I'm still remained Cool Claim-
Argh crap!There are just bunch of Excuses for being such a Useless and Coward person

But finally I did some confession- I told him How i feel - the conversation doesn't seem smooth for both of US. - Speechless moment - tick tock tick tock
At the mean time I decided to post the advertisement that should been done it earlier, I took my gut to check the price for my lovely baby :( You're PRICELESS for me but you mean nothing for others ... What a Realistic WORLD :(

Well , this might be the best way to end the story, at least i couldn't come out with a better idea what i should do.

On d other side, I feel a bit released. I think this time I Really did something that consider RIGHT for myself :)


Good Luck !!

所谓的以为....

以为尽力了，其实力不从心
习惯了敲打键盘的黑夜
软弱的心，经历被瓦解时刻

总是说这个不够好，那个又怎样
原来只是自己吹毛求疵怪缺点
把简简单单，细细腻腻的一切都放大
复杂又庞大的思考把自己搞垮

我以为只要用了心，一定能被感动到
以为没犯错就无需背负些什么
这只是堆无止境的“我以为”而已.....

谁像我这么无知，总想守得云开见月明
那只是欺骗没脑袋傻人而已


我没办法忠于自己了........

寂静•空白の时刻

连续失眠，是自己想多了还是不知足？
那所谓的一瞬间，决定了也否决了
当沦陷的这刻，我竟然想后退，也想逃脱
越多的猜忌，反而让自己窒息
原本以为拥抱着的默契，可以继续撑过去
回过神来才惊觉其实它却逐步离去

无言以对.......只想逃....