属于二月的心情

非一般的心情
带点矛盾加上那几分忐忑
就这样在我的二月份画上了句点
有时怨恨自己那犹豫不决
又有那么一刻觉得自己了不起
也许人生就该这样起落中得到启发
那天哭着气馁的心情是清晰的
我·体验了所谓适者生存的道理
除了接受我想没什么可做
虽然暗地里会对自己唠叨
可是现实中我是真的无能为力
如果用了心，别人体会不了我又何必强球
既然人家无情就别妄想会得到那点同情
就算再怎么委曲求全也只是多此一举
break down 总总事迹我是时候觉悟了

这次让自己勇敢一次
做回自己本分，别顾虑那些杂碎事务
只是短短两年，苦了之后必定有晴天
我决对要证明· 我的努力是可以被认同的
而受的那点委屈不会致命
才不会那点小事而压抑我做回自己的权力

So...GOD BLESS ALICE SIM! 为了明天再次出发！加油 ^_______^...

懒人手记 ：举棋不定

心被困在那看不见前方的路
有点无助，需要那点安抚
只怪没有勇气还有那不潇洒
就算把一切咽下
思绪仍是复杂加上那点挣扎

恨自己竟是那么的不堪一击
闭上双眼脑袋渐渐空白
逞强的心再也撑不住
来回在那矛盾里游走
找不到那歇下伪装的理由
就这样任性的泪水再次洒下

都归我不敢对自己坦诚
就这样一而再再而三
*拖了再拖*
不知如何是好惟有延迟
可是如今由不得我来决择
是时候对自己负责
我不懂那会不会比较好
且不知道那是不是对自己好
万一失败我也得接受...... (",)

finally - IT's Confirmed

Final reservation been confirm
the adventure going to START
There are bunch of mixture feeling
from Confuse merge to Excited end up with Complicated

This might be a no turning back choices
i took my gut to make up my mind
i hope thats the best way
No Matter what i shouldn't feel REGRET
at least I DID try my BEST

Eventhough i fail , i guess that's the faith
it's the things that out of my control
Maybe that's the reason people says : Appreciated the Cheerish moment
Yes ! I'm doing all this things now

14 days count down ! it would b so soon
And Sure i'll miss all those MEMORY that happen @ the windy city !!!!


Good Luck ....adios to the one that I LOVE !

Real SAD....

When the night been too long
Is there any deep thought that make you awake
Sometimes I really wanna says good bye
Eventhough nothing remaining smooth
yet I never put the blame on anyone
I rather keep everything deep inside
Shouldn't feel regret that’s the choice I’ve choosed
So I had to keep all the tear and take the burden by my own
Persuade myself "that’s not a big deal "
That's the routine things I've keep praticing
However, What happen now was way too much
IT already Totally out of my expectation
What i'm going to says is -I couldn’t take it anymore
Because of my coward, my patient, my ignorance
I feel down..i feel upset..i feel lost
In my dream wishing hard hoping much for those shitty feel can slip away
Once again the fact never lie
Looking it over and over those problem always there
It’s still the fact that going over and over again and again
Just I’m the dumb ass that ignore it again and again
Big fall from the hill down to endless road
I vanished my passionate
I couldn’t hold my tears and fears amy longerrrrrr..................................

***END***

2小时57分钟...

“它”唤醒了沉睡记忆
让身在异乡的自己不再孤寂
窝心带点羞涩的回忆全都涌现
虽然脑袋仍然是处于迟钝状态
起码该有的记忆它们始终还是浮现
喜悦的谈论里说着自己那年的稚气
说着·听着；笑着傻傻呆呆的我与你
满满的感动加上那说不出的悦气
我与你口中，说不完的你记得吗
那瞬间觉得愧疚于自己的狂妄自信
可是我还是努力绞尽脑汁
翻开那深邃在记忆深处的所有事迹
回味那天真无邪的欢乐时光
这秒钟,伴随着我是那长长的感叹
原来啊时光飞逝,
岁月也从不饶人
当时的种种点滴
记载了我们成长的记忆
里头的苦涩情绪
迷迷糊糊却摇醒了被遗忘的友情
那年的潇洒
那时的孩子气
隐藏了许多不堪回首的小插曲
它却老老实实记载成长中最璀璨欢乐时光里
谢谢你·翻开我那早被遗忘的成长日记
把那被撕裂的矛盾心情装满了温馨
让我在这冷冷的冬天有了那股暖暖的气息

IT's the year of OX

Shout out loud~Hey everyone Happy Chinese New YR..
I can't remember how many CNY i've been miss out
how many "ang pau" my Bro or Sis have eat it by themselve ...
Anyway just another CNY that i'm alone @ d god damn cold city

However, even i'm not @ home but stil i'm well prepare for the big day
woke up early ..clean all my stuff, included my lovable car
then START the Reunion dinner preparation WORK
goshhhh.. to my mom---Now i know ..really know how Good you're.......
it's super duper TIRED..for make all those dished done! eventhough just STEAMBOAT
But it killed me badly...." Blushing" u ppl know me well

I RARELY RARELY will step into the Kitchen and make a good look DISHES...
so can you imagine how HARD for me to make all those yucky thing done
Yet....i stil ..stil manage to make it DONE :) happy happy happy....
From my roommate and landlord EXPRESSION....wuuuuu "THUMBS UP"
Cheerzz for ME! AT least this time i make another impossible task to be Possible
Again...have too much food for TONITE.....
Added the calories from d BEER ---I'm super "OVERLOADED"


Okie dokie...time for me to GO! As u know What a PIG usually will DO -Beside EAT then will be SLEEP, i'm just being one of them! so ppl ..ADIOS plus Gd niteeee!

Hope EVERYONE have a wonderful YR......miss uuuuuu pppl alot's alot's alots.......

休克一秒钟

让脑袋停止运作
过着过分充实的生活
一切变得不协调
意味把时间填上就不再感觉寂静
恍然发现其实心在无形中沉重了不少

别人都说别想太多
只要努力就够了
可是那真的够哦，
他们真的看得见，感觉到吗？
对我而言是少了分安全感
生活的保障根本让人握不牢
长大后所有的事不再单纯
要烦的事务也理所当然有增无减

这时候先·休克一秒钟
不再想太多
因为不论怎么想，怎么做
我还是在这现实世界里游走


Time to LEAVE this crappy mumbling blogie...Adios (*@*)