属于二月的心情

非一般的心情
带点矛盾加上那几分忐忑
就这样在我的二月份画上了句点
有时怨恨自己那犹豫不决
又有那么一刻觉得自己了不起
也许人生就该这样起落中得到启发
那天哭着气馁的心情是清晰的
我·体验了所谓适者生存的道理
除了接受我想没什么可做
虽然暗地里会对自己唠叨
可是现实中我是真的无能为力
如果用了心，别人体会不了我又何必强球
既然人家无情就别妄想会得到那点同情
就算再怎么委曲求全也只是多此一举
break down 总总事迹我是时候觉悟了

这次让自己勇敢一次
做回自己本分，别顾虑那些杂碎事务
只是短短两年，苦了之后必定有晴天
我决对要证明· 我的努力是可以被认同的
而受的那点委屈不会致命
才不会那点小事而压抑我做回自己的权力

So...GOD BLESS ALICE SIM! 为了明天再次出发！加油 ^_______^...

懒人手记 ：举棋不定

心被困在那看不见前方的路
有点无助，需要那点安抚
只怪没有勇气还有那不潇洒
就算把一切咽下
思绪仍是复杂加上那点挣扎

恨自己竟是那么的不堪一击
闭上双眼脑袋渐渐空白
逞强的心再也撑不住
来回在那矛盾里游走
找不到那歇下伪装的理由
就这样任性的泪水再次洒下

都归我不敢对自己坦诚
就这样一而再再而三
*拖了再拖*
不知如何是好惟有延迟
可是如今由不得我来决择
是时候对自己负责
我不懂那会不会比较好
且不知道那是不是对自己好
万一失败我也得接受...... (",)

finally - IT's Confirmed

Final reservation been confirm
the adventure going to START
There are bunch of mixture feeling
from Confuse merge to Excited end up with Complicated

This might be a no turning back choices
i took my gut to make up my mind
i hope thats the best way
No Matter what i shouldn't feel REGRET
at least I DID try my BEST

Eventhough i fail , i guess that's the faith
it's the things that out of my control
Maybe that's the reason people says : Appreciated the Cheerish moment
Yes ! I'm doing all this things now

14 days count down ! it would b so soon
And Sure i'll miss all those MEMORY that happen @ the windy city !!!!


Good Luck ....adios to the one that I LOVE !

Real SAD....

When the night been too long
Is there any deep thought that make you awake
Sometimes I really wanna says good bye
Eventhough nothing remaining smooth
yet I never put the blame on anyone
I rather keep everything deep inside
Shouldn't feel regret that’s the choice I’ve choosed
So I had to keep all the tear and take the burden by my own
Persuade myself "that’s not a big deal "
That's the routine things I've keep praticing
However, What happen now was way too much
IT already Totally out of my expectation
What i'm going to says is -I couldn’t take it anymore
Because of my coward, my patient, my ignorance
I feel down..i feel upset..i feel lost
In my dream wishing hard hoping much for those shitty feel can slip away
Once again the fact never lie
Looking it over and over those problem always there
It’s still the fact that going over and over again and again
Just I’m the dumb ass that ignore it again and again
Big fall from the hill down to endless road
I vanished my passionate
I couldn’t hold my tears and fears amy longerrrrrr..................................

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