男人不坏女人不爱

吼! 这是每个女人的心声吗？有时就会觉得女人都犯贱，老爱自寻烦恼，身边有个体贴到不行男人，我们却视而不见；非要自虐一番找个花心大萝卜，割得自己遍体鳞伤，然后哭哭啼啼说着我命真苦啊。
那简直是自掘坟墓嘛！怪什么怪，根本是自个有眼无珠,被那眼前风度翩翩，装得可爱到不行的怪兽给蒙骗了，受了被抛弃的结局又须要唠叨什么呢...

可是我就是不明白为什么我们就是非得让自己痛哭加痛苦不堪才会觉得那是场经历风雨的爱情结局，那难道不委屈或不觉得很受伤吗！悲哀，女人就好像都活在梦幻里，被那绮丽的谎言给蒙蔽了，而也怪不得人，原本该有的理智就这样笨得要死的跟随那谎言一起被埋没在梦境里。呼··非常赞同！想想曾今何时的自己也犯了同样的错，被谎言蒙蔽了，哭的稀里哗啦忘了尊严在哪...感触良多╮(╯▽╰)╭

Isn't RIGHT ?

Finally I'm Done with "He's Not That Into YOU" ..Pheeew, I've took almost 6 months equal to 1/2 yr to finish this realistic plus lot's of illustrative example that impressed me ! The author was Evil genius come out with those ruthless romance and the meanie wordy that hit my ass till the endless way --- NICE ! "guess I Love to mentally abuse my thought that's why i love this book :)

Concept 1.
Exaltation -know as- He's out of your life and out of ur Damn phone.
While reading this book the 1st thing that I've learned was Realization. Believe that we could be a better person, instead of sticky out ass with the asshole or idiot Why not just change our own life to live better and treat ourselves better :) ... You're so RIGHT damn it ! - I spent Yrs to go through those depression days looking back or thinking about it I feel sorry to myself -it's SO WASTED ! Everyone know getting out from a dead end relationship was hard and Crush will not happen easily but positive way we could find a better choice coz We DESERVE a better one...I know saying this right now was pretty lame, to tell you the truth that's the lil thingy that we need to go thru while we found out Someone wasn't that into US :) "Mr. Dumb - U'll love this theory uh .....LOL!"

Concept 2.
Loneliness- know as -Great What Am I doing or what I SHOULD do ?
Well, who doesn't love to be love! Who want to go movie by alone or Who wanted to be asked Why you're not dating or getting married blah blah blah. Oh shit it's pretty annoying! But what to do ! Keep staying touch with the damn guy that can't pulled off from his "A..B..C " past relationship or keep giving yourself a phonebook thick excuse to accept he's damn bullshit EXCUSE again and again....You're wasting your time and make the situation Complicated - Yeah totally agree to this point. Everyone moved on...get rid of the asshole that doesn't appreciated Us. Instead of keep convincing why not just get ur ass MOVED. Find What's Our goal, What's the thing we lost while we're stuck in d deep shit mud! ......Life w/o expectation always good at least less disappointment to happen. So why not just let it flow ...We can get a better choice -- Wormie this for uuuuu :)


Hmmm after two concept I'm getting LAZY d so to be continue ...

Liceeee

Blahhh.....Bullshit !!!

承诺是什么？而感性又是什么？啊！脑袋满满的问号，就连最好要的是什么都模糊。默默流下的眼泪，惆怅的夜全被寂寞包围。连自己都不懂要什么，种种的借口加上复杂的思绪，心里的天枰绝对已经倾斜，甚至自己都不知道该往哪个方向走。
到底是自己不明白，还是不想接受；所有混乱的感觉，是否该拒绝，还是如往常的往前飞。怎么，这次会有那种不安的感觉，也许知道这不是自己想要的一切。当反复阅读想要或结束，心反而变得更加沉重，甚至贪图那伤口一次次被洒上盐巴。
脑袋常在想些东南西北，内心的自己却盲目在逃避；我不懂什么是公平，只相信狠下心时，那种种的借口可以厚得无法想象。每天假装忙碌；不，应该是茫然的忙碌，就是想把脑袋补得满满让它少了胡思乱想的空间。
时间一分一秒，滴答过；问题并没消失过，只是短暂的被压抑下去，辗转几圈后又回到了原点。虽然厌倦，仍然要硬着心，努力的说服自己接受那不可理喻的笨借口。
累了！听得太多也倦了！希望快乐の小天使可以守护我，好让我黯然渡过这烦人的日子 \(^o^)/ ；诚信祈求，郁郁寡欢的日子快点离开！别掀开那回忆的盖，而心里的恶魔你快离开！人生往往徘徊在矛盾里，太的选择要抉择，而可悲是它们都没有平衡可言.社会就是这么现实，鱼与熊掌本来就不能兼得，而我也得接受这道理..........

S-O-R-R-Y

Lately, I've been going through some tough choices. I admitted it's all my fault being so careless and heartless. I've set myself into the damn freaking shitty situation, I know I'm pretty selfish, i want to hold both benefit in once. I'm not going to blame anyone on this issue, it's my own choice and my attitude problem. I should aware about the problem or maybe bring it up earlier instead of letting it keep heating up end up with a boom -ENDING-
Guess as my "expectation"I don't think things will get real smooth at this point, both of us Need Extra time to overcome everything. I won't force you to make any decision yet I'm wishing things doesn't get to a no Turning back situation.

Again ...Sorry is the only word i could say.........

11.23.2009...o(>_<)o..

有种感觉是无奈
表面冷静
其实内心彷徨
当发现自己不能主宰
才明白内心是无助
失去很久的感觉再次袭击
不是多心，不是不信任
只是那好奇心作祟
洞悉人心的本性重新显现

这一夜，失眠了
犹豫了自己的决定
泄气的我重复说不许哭
可是那不争气的眼泪一直流
已不想这样来回拉扯
心里的恐惧无人能知悉
本来就爱逃避,这次我可以往哪里去
告诉我平衡点在哪里...............

我是不是应该满足
回忆只不过如此
为了什么我要在乎
不是说好不能哭吗
如果自己承受不住
又何苦继续贪图
潇洒的无止尽的付出
不如这样就结束...

闹情绪吖...o(︶︿︶)o

我不想多说话
只想趁自己能舍弃时选择离开

也许是自己背负太多
或者是那可恨的阴影在作祟
但我还是我一贯的选了放弃

握不牢的感觉不再实在
再多的承诺只会是一次次的空等待
那我何必等！
不如踏实点离开吧！


*PMS-ing* Mode- 心情糟透了 ~~o(>_<)o ~~

update ....

习惯把自己隐藏，是因为想要自己有那么一点空间好让那模糊的思绪能透气。盲目的封锁自己很努力的把一切当成习惯。往日对别人的评论都会很无形的介怀，我不想给于再多的解释，也许太多的解说他..她..或..它 都不会明白。我说的再多只会是无谓的解释，或别人眼里逃避的理由，或许吧！这些日子逃离了，我明白大家的关心，我也清楚了解别人害怕我有压抑不安的情绪，可是某程度上这关心却成了自己无形的压力；向来喜欢叽喳聊东聊西，可是现在反而自在的活在自己的世界，也许脑袋终于要休息。关于自己的种种都不想做无谓的解释，如果大家眼里我是不堪又任性，那就随它吧！越是在乎，心反而变得更加承重，现在的我已经无力再承受不必要的甲乙丙丁，说三到四的解说。最近，甚至有人对我说，这样下去我会“anti-social"仔细想想，嗯.. 是有可能的,只因现在的自己太抗拒面对人群了！
昨夜的你，突然问了，我曾今的理想是什么？瞬间才恍然醒悟，然后觉得愧疚；顿时间，我楞了，只是无言傻笑然后敷衍而过。其实内心是无奈加自责，原来自己老是跟着别人的步伐走，害怕失败所以甘于满足现状。说理想我好像没什么头绪也找不到它！
费劲心思努力想，我的理想是什么。它好像带点傍徨及迷蒙，回忆一番，几个月前有另一个他也问了相同的话。当时的我只是想处理好眼前那堆有始以来的苦恼，最近进入状况后又忘了去想自己要什么。昨夜，辗转难眠，只能摸摸我脑袋，却摸不着到底自己要什么。我问了自己，确定现在这状况是自己的路吗？自己的忐忑，自己的懦弱害怕那未知的明天不像理想中完美；每次回头望都会惆怅的叹息，成长了，也坚强了，可是又回到原点，要的是什么？我到底是不甘心放手，所以到了现在还很执着吗？
......What a mess......... I guess I'll need a break to clear what's my ultimate "GOAL" so i could move on ! Lice....别把一切说得太煽情，记得要加油那是给自己最好的力量 \(^o^)/ .... always BS!